Jelly Beans, Jelly Beans Go Away

Well, I'm down to where there are only purple and black, which I hate, and there are peeps here for Kate, but I also hate them and there's one pack of Reeses Pieces in the shape of a carrot, but hooray for me....I hate them too!
What's surprising is that I have a dish full of Dove dark chocolate eggs on the dining room table and they don't bother me at all.  Go figure!
Yesterday I gave Sr. Mary Joseph from The Homeless Shelter my other bag of jelly beans and the malted milk eggs.
So no more bringing candy into this house that I like.  I wonder how long that will work.

I'm Riding My Bike

This morning I decided to ride my exercise bike (it's one of those fan bikes with arms that you have to push while you ride) first thing so I didn't keep making excuses during the day....so I did!  Rode 30 minutes and worked up a huge sweat....felt so good.

I will do this again tomorrow :)

I Feel Good

Since I haven't been thinking of 'being on a diet', it's getting easier for me to get through my days.  Today I didn't have breakfast because I just wasn't hungry for breakfast.
But at 11 am I made my lunch....a hard boiled egg sandwich on whole wheat bread.  For a snack I had a non-fat yogurt.  I did sneak in a couple of jelly beans throughout the day, but nothing like I used to.
Dinner was my burger (see Dolly's Daily Dish) with dessert, which I split with Leon, but overall I feel good about today.
I won't be having dessert all the time, but once in awhile keeps me from going on a binge.
I didn't have my veggies today....but I will have them tomorrow. 
I feel good....that's all that matters!

Today was a GOOD Day :)

Thanks to my daughter, Kate, I got off on the right track today.  I ate my fruit (blueberries, raspberries and blackberries) this morning for breakfast - they tasted so good.
At noon I had a Taste Test  (I get paid to taste chicken for Perdue Chicken), so my lunch was 1-1/2 breaded chicken strips - quite good.
After that I went shopping and it was about 2:30 pm, so I thought I would treat myself to a small cone at Dairy Queen, which I did and that satisfied me until dinner.
My dinner was healthy (see my Dolly's Daily Dish Blog) and I feel good that I didn't sit and binge today.
I didn't ride my bike today, but I did alot of walking around while shopping, and when I got home, I moved furniture and went up and down the steps quite a few times doing laundry.  I will ride my bike tomorrow, since I should be home most of the day.
It was a GOOD DAY today....here's hoping tomorrow is the same!

Stuck in a Rut

This has been the story of my life for the last twenty years....and I'm struggling with how to get "out of the rut" and stay out!
Yes, I can follow ANY diet and lose weight.....I have in the past, but it always came back. 
My trouble is that I use food as a drug.  So I have to replace that drug with something else and right now I'm not sure what to replace it with.  I don't have a good support system since I live away from my family and friends, who truly care. 
Years ago, when I lived near my family, I'd love to get up in the mornings, go to the "Y" and then after go running a couple of miles.  This was my life...I loved it...it felt good.  This is not me right now and hasn't been for the last 20 years.  I know I'm missing out on life because of my weight, but my mind is holding me back.
I know I need a support group, but I have never found the right one that works for me.  Any suggestions out there, please send my way and help me climb out of this rut!

That's What I Mean

Here I am at 4 am....up because I have upset stomach from the way I ate last night.  When will I ever learn?    Leon and I decided to go out for a bite instead of cooking and we went to our favorite place, "The Backstreet Grill".  We both looked at their specials, one of which was a Raspberry Walnut Salad, which I love, but instead we ordered appetizers only....a basket of french fries, four mini burgers and an order of potato skins.   "Dolly, what were you thinking"?
That's what I mean.....I don't always think when I go out to eat.  It wasn't because I was even starving, because I wasn't.  It's just all so tempting.  Anyway, I'm paying for it now.  Took 3 tums, but my stomach is a mess.
As I laid in bed (woke up at 3 am), I told Leon that he has to tell me in these situations not to make these bad choices.
I was so desperate yesterday, I signed up to maybe get picked to go on the Oprah Show for Mom's Who Want to Lose Weight - oh boy....stay tuned!

Quote of the Day

The cardiologist's diet: If it tastes good, spit it out.

No Soda This Week

One of the biggest things I'm doing this week is drinking much more water.  I used to drink diet soda all the time (which doesn't have any calories, but alot of chemicals and sodium), but I haven't had one all week.  This is one of the small steps I am taking.  I do get up every morning have my bowl of berries and then a breakfast bar, which is something I haven't done in the past.  I haven't been depriving myself completely of sweets, but I have them in small doses....a couple of jelly beans last night.....a bite of candy today.....but so much less than what I have been doing.

I'm moving around a little more....trying to keep busy.  Every day I try my best....and for now that's all I can do.

I'm Moving a Little More

I finally got my butt outside and worked in the yard for two hours.  I raked, bent down picking up piles that I raked, pruned trees and bushes, carried limbs to the back yard...it was alot of work.  It was warm enough down here to be out there in my short sleeves, so that was nice.

I ate pretty good today...not perfect, but better than I have been.  I feel I'm on the right path.

Facing The Truth

Well, I ate myself sick this weekend....making sure I got everything in my belly before I start my journey again of trying to lose weight.  I was literally sick last night and sick this morning when I woke up.  Then......facing the truth.....the scale - oh no!  Well, I knew I was over 200 lbs., but I wasn't sure how much over.  But I slowly stepped on my doctor's scale (I have an authentic doctor's scale that I picked up years ago) and here it is - 209-1/4 lbs.
That's it...now it's out there......now I go from here.... 1 lb. at a time.  I will only weigh myself once a week, so check back every Monday to see how I am doing.

Today's a new day!  Rejoice and be glad :)

The Beached Whale

Well, there she is in full view.....Dolly, the Beach Whale!

  I can't believe I'm even posting this, but I must face the truth.  Is this what I want to look like this year?  I couldn't even get up out of the chair by myself. 

So, hopefully the next pictures I post of myself will be showing less of me.  I must say....the tan does help a little - LOL :)

I'm Starting Again on Monday

Yes, I'm back at it again....trying to shed these pounds that have been hounding me for years!  My sister just started Jenny Craig (been there - done that....as a matter of fact, I've done them all), but I have decided to try and go back to counting calories, cutting portions, exercising.....all the horrible things they say we should do to lose weight....only I will try to think positive about them. 

It's this mind of mine...if I could only get it lined up right......THINK THIN.....THINK HEALTHY......FEEL GOOD......ENJOY EXERCISING........NO JUNK FOOD........ETC., ETC., ETC.

So, tomorrow, Monday, March 15, 2010.....I am trying again.  If you want to follow me .....I'd love your support.  I could use all the words of encouragement I can get :)